I am having an interesting couple of weeks. Lots of things have gone wrong and I cannot seem to control any of it. I did try. However, it has just occurred to me that maybe I am not supposed to control any of it and just let it be. Having come to this conclusion has made me a little anxious because when you are not in control of the events that are unfolding in your life you tend to experience a feeling of being worthless or incapable. Now I know this sounds extreme but what I mean is that I do not have the ability to change the events that are occurring because these events are I think divine intervention. 

Something is happening and I am not sure what exactly it is. What I do know is that I can physically feel a change occurring. I am not sure where it is going or how it will turn out but what I do know is that there is a definite push to point me in the right direction so to speak. Lately I have been wanting change in my life and up until now I waited patiently for something to happen. Having the patience of a Tasmanian Devil I decided that I needed to give the transition a little push. So I made up my mind to actively participate in changing my life because lately I felt that I have been in intermission. You know that space in time when you just sit and wait for the next part of the movie to begin. That's where I have been, intermission. And I waited for the movie to begin, but to be honest it was really boring waiting. So I began to get active and begin the movie. 

Interestingly things are looking up and there is an energy in the air that I cannot explain, but what I do know is that if you want things to change in your life then you need to begin the process. Now how you begin the process depends on what you want and who you are. However to create significant change and move in a different direction you must do things differently. Einstein says that 'insanity is when you do the same thing over and over again and then expect different results'. Luckily for me I am not insane and never do anything in the same way, therefore based on Einstein's theory I can guarantee different results.

This concept has led me to approach how to create changes in my life and I am only finding out after two weeks of trying to control the uncontrollable that what I really need to do is let go. Yes folks, that's right, let go of control. Interestingly this concept has only just dawned on me in the past 24 hours. The thought came out of nowhere during intermission. Amazing how when you let go ideas move into the forefront of your brain and begin flashing like neon signs highlighted in colour so that you pay attention to your own thoughts and trust yourself to engage with those thoughts in a capable way.

I am a control freak and today I decided not to control anything and guess what it's all happening. Things are running smoothly and I am feeling totally confident that things will move in the right direction for me at this time.

I guess thats the point of letting go of control, putting your faith in the universe to provide the things that you need for the now. 

Interestingly all is well, a little slow but running smoothly. So maybe it's not really the change that is occurring that bothers me but the rate of the pace that change is occurring at. Slow is definitely not my thing...lol 

Intermission has made me philosophical so in the words of Einstein 'learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning!'

So on it goes!

Life is good.

The Sun Comes Up

Its been an inspiring weekend. Took a walk this morning along the Bibbulmun Track with my little dog who did not want to go home despite his tiredness. This photo means he is happy however it does not show how tired he was. Love me dog but damned if I was going to carry him uphill and home. We rested on the this fantastic hill that overlooked the gully.

Beautiful

And the view was breathtaking. This shot does not do it justice because it looks down a drop into the gully below. As I stood enjoying the scenery, I could hear the birds singing. A couple came up to me with their dog and out of my mouth came the words 'I wish I was here when the sun came up'. No hello, no nothing, just 'I wish I was here when the sun came up'.

Amazing, I was dumbstruck with the beauty of the place and I was in a bit of a daze because the sun was warm and the animals were singing and it was just bliss. The man looked at me and then he looked at what I was looking at. And as I watched him he walked to the edge and looked around and I saw that he saw what I was seeing. He nodded his head and mumbled and then he turned looked at me and said, 'yes'. 

Today I introduced somebody to my world and he got it. He understood. I didn't have to explain it to him, he understood. We chatted about the dogs and then I left the couple there with their dog and Duncan and I headed home. 

On the way back I took a different route and Duncan was not liking it. I had him on a leash as we got closer to civilisation and he actually stopped, turned and looked down a dirt track, then he looked at me and I swear he didn't move. The dog had decided he wanted to go home his own way. So off we went down another dirt track with a very happy pooch running along in front of me.

Poor old Dunc was exhausted by the time we arrived home after 2 hours of bush walking, but he managed to get there and back without me having to pick him up and he has slept in his chair all day. 

Wore him out I did. But I know he loved it as much as I did.

The sun was shining, the birds were singing, there was a chill in the air and today I showed a stranger my world, and I didn't have to explain it, he got it.

Life is good!!!

This my friends is the sign of a woman who has definitely been doing way too much lately... Yes you guessed it, I have been madly reading and studying for my end of semester assignments etc etc etc. The good news is I finally have them all done and I needed some R & R time, so the beast put these beautiful sunnies on me whilst I was curled up in my arm chair. Have to say you can actually see through them, that made me laugh. 

To elaborate on my need to relax its been a fabulous semester of intense learning, one in which I have enjoyed immensely. Yes there is something wrong with me, I like academia. However, working and studying finally took its toll and I became physically ill. Good news is that I am home resting and enjoying a couple of days watching the tube and chilling out with the beast who has a cold and is unwell herself. Interestingly I reckon my illness is probably not from my intense semester, but more from the germs the beast carries in the door after being at school all day with her mates. I reckon the high school environment is a petri-dish that resembles the floor of the beasts bedroom. Things are growing in there and you have absolutely no idea when they are going to be released and attack your immune system. I actually had to go to the doctor for some drugs which is unusual for me because generally I work through whatever is wrong with me. 

Not this time. I finally had to admit that I was ill. I have worked and worked until I felt exhausted and here I am in the armchair. Serves my self right you reckon? Absolutely. You see people like me never know when to give it up and just relax. I am the person who always needs to be busy doing something. I cannot seem to sit on the couch unless my body packs it in and forces me to rest. 

So today, I relax and tomorrow I am going to do something new. I am going to read a book for enjoyment. Now that will be fun.

Life is good!